georgia peach

Somedays I find myself reminiscing over old photographs. 

Somedays I find myself waking up wondering where you are in this World. 

Where you ended up and how you are doing. 

Somedays I find myself realizing the change in me 

from where I was when I met you, to where I am now. 

Somedays I wonder why I met you and why everything happened the way it did. 

I will never forget what you have taught me, what I have found out about myself and what you have given me in my life. I don't think there was a minute in the day where you and I weren't together. It may have been a good thing but I know it wasn't bad either. You and I connected in many different levels and I was able to see the true you. The you that no one else was able to see. The you that defined your true beauty, love and friendship that no one knew was there. The you that made you different.

 You knew how to have fun. You knew how to have a good time and you knew how to receive connections. You knew how to manipulate. You knew how to lie and you knew how to persuade. But despite it all, I find myself missing you. I sometimes find myself wondering where you are and how you are doing. Wondering if your life is going the way you want it and that your new lifestyle is treating you well. Wondering the type of person you are today and wondering if me and my family ever cross your mind. I wonder if someday I will run into you again and if I do, I want to first apologize for what I have done. What I have said that hurt you and made you runaway. I want to apologize for stabbing you in the back and turning against you when you needed me most. 

And most importantly. . . 

 I want to apologize for revealing your deepest secret. 

You have hurt me. You have lied to me. You have exposed me and you have manipulated me. But I have done the same to you and I have come to accept that and realize that it all happened for a reason. I have come to accept that it may have been meant to be and you did it for good reasons. 

I have come to accept it all.

You may never know how much your friendship meant to me. I have learned through our many mistakes and know now to never take that route but either way I am thankful I met you. I am thankful you helped me realize my biggest regrets as well as my greatest tributes. Amidst it all, I consider you one of my closest friends I have encountered in my lifetime. Amidst it all, I still love you and think about you from time to time. Amidst it all, I hope that someday, our paths will cross again. But as for now, I wish you the best and hope that you realize that my family and I will always accept and love you for you.