to you:

Before you read this, please know I mean every word. 

Well here it goes... Ahem, 

I know we met for a reason. Since the first time I saw your picture with your name written beside it, I was hooked. Since the first time we talked, I felt as if we had been friends forever. As I stood on your porch ready to ring your doorbell to meet you for the first time, my heart was racing a thousand miles an hour. When I finally saw you for the first time, 

I felt butterflies in my stomach. 

Since day one, I felt you were my best friend and you still are my best friend. Since day one, I felt connected in every way possible with you. Since day one, I liked everything about you; your style of clothes, your big brown eyes, the way you smiled, how you walked, your personality, the color of your hair,  the way you carried yourself, and the way you looked at me when you answered the door. Thanksgiving break was a whirlwind. Never did I thought I would like someone so quick after meeting them the day before. Never did I thought anything would come between us until two weeks later, it happened.

The past sixth months have been the worst/best experiences I have ever had with anyone. You taught me so many things. You taught me how to be myself. You taught me how to rely on my OWN emotions and not OTHERS. You taught me to look inside myself. You taught me to be fearless with my fears. You taught me how to stand up for myself. You taught me how to laugh again. 
You taught me how to reach out to others. 
And most importantly, you taught me how to love. 

There were many stormy days between you and I but I would not trade any of it. We have learned from our regrets, sat through several stupid fights, held some silent treatments, walked away from each other and ended things I don't know how many times until it was finally for good. 

But honestly, even though you are not apart of my life the way you were, I still hope you continue to be my best friend in the future. It may take some time for us to reunite, but I am willing to wait for as long as that takes for you and I to 

both feel comfortable around each other. 

But the main reason why I am writing this is to thank you. Thank you for all your hugs. Thank you for treating me like a woman. Thank you for giving me respect. Thank you for listening. Thank you for your advice. Thank you for your example. Thank you for your humor. Thank you for your gifts. Thank you for every kiss you gave me. Thank you for seeing the better in me. Thank you for the moments you called me "beautiful" and "angel." Thank you for your positivity. Thank you for every rose. Thank you for every dance. Thank you for cheering me up when I was down. Thank you for showing me what love is. 
And most importantly, thank you for always being you and never changing. 

I have learned and grown so much these last six months and I know I wouldn't have been able to do it without your support. But as we go our separate ways, my heart aches, my mind is blurry, but sometimes you need to make sacrifices. This isn't easy for me and I know it isn't easy for you. We may only see pain, heartbreak, and may not see the outcome of it all now, 
but we will in the near future. 
I just hope someday our paths will cross again and just know...

You have been an angel in my life 
and I will always have a love for you in my heart. 

                                                                                Love always, 

                                                                                                       Me